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Turn Over a New Leaf through Sincere Repentance

Written by  Siow Lee Kien, KL & Selangor / Translated by Ong Mooi Lin

The verse, “The Law of Karma never fails” is deeply ingrained in Fong Mooi Kin’s mind. [Photograph by Leong Chian Yee]

Fong Mooi Kin has been practising sign language and memorizing and chanting verses for the upcoming Dharma as Water sutra adaptation performance. At night, she used to cry herself to sleep. However, after much self-reflection, she realized that she must repent for the past sins she had created.


 
Unwholesome causes, conditions and retributions
 
Eighteen years ago, unhappy with her husband sticking to a low-income job and could not provide her with an affluent life, Fong Mooi Kin left her husband, who loved her dearly, and her son, who was still in primary school. She also sold her husband’s property and took all the money with her. She left nothing for her husband and son; and was anticipating a happy second marriage. But, it was not to be. Her second marriage was also a failure and did not last long.
 
Mooi Kin was overly ambitious and wanted to make a lot of money. But, without investment and management acumen, she was heavily in debt. With two failed marriages and monetary losses, she had wished to end her life on a number of occasions.
 
Once, when her suicidal thoughts resurfaced, she came across Tzu Chi’s blood donation drive in a newspaper, and thought to herself, “I will die anyway, why not donate my blood to save others first?” and that was the start of her affinity with Tzu Chi.
 
Mooi Kin did not only donate blood but also RM20. She thought to herself, “This organization is incredible. Not only did they take my blood but they also asked for my money!” After donating blood, she wandered around and realized that she was still “useful” in a way. At least, she was able to save others in need through blood donation. Her suicidal thoughts and emotional turbulence were slowly diminishing, and the words “Tzu Chi” and a seed of kindness were planted in her mind.
 
In 2011, Mooi Kin’s friend, Koh Ee Eng, who is a Tzu Chi volunteer, invited her to Tzu Chi. It was then that she decided to join the organization. In 2012, through her participation in the sutra adaptation performance for the Year-end Blessing Ceremony, Mooi Kin understood the Karmic Law of Cause and Effect, and realized the unwholesome karma she had created. 
With her participation in the Dharma as Water sutra adaptation performance this year, she has been attending the sutra study group monthly and sign language practices bimonthly. Now that the sutra verses are deeply rooted in her mind, and with her true comprehension of the Dharma, she has finally understood that “for the karma created, we must repent.”
 
The Law of Karma never fails
 
“It seemed like my first husband was indebted to me in our previous life, and that I was indebted to my second husband.” Mooi Kin has realized that these are all a result of karmic causes and retributions. Her first husband was submissive and took her wish as his command, but he failed to meet her material expectation. When she was heavily in debt, he extended help and supported her without grudges.
 
During Tzu Chi’s home visits, Mooi Kin witnessed the care recipients leading a happy life with all their family members living together in spite of poverty. She regretted her past ignorance, which had destroyed her complete and happy family.
 
Ashamed of facing her first husband, Mooi Kin could not bring herself to visit and pay her last respect to her former parents-in-law when they were critically ill and later passed away. Her guilty conscience has remained with her till now.
 
Without proper care and motherly love since young, her son has become a hooligan and is also a rebellious and problematic student in school. Feeling guilty and remorseful, Mooi Kin holds herself responsible for all his wrongdoings.
 
The verse, “The Law of Karma never fails”, is deeply imprinted in Mooi Kin’s mind. Her being unfilial to her former parents-in-law (the cause) has led her son to disdain her (the retribution). She calmly accepts the karmic retribution.
 
On a monthly basis, Mooi Kin will join volunteers in serving the residents at a centre for the physically and/or mentally-challenged at Kuala Kubu Bharu. She has even vowed to walk on Tzu Chi’s Bodhisattva Path diligently and translate her love for her late parents-in-law to the needy in society.
 
Unwholesome karma was created in the past due to ignorance of the Karmic Law of Cause and Effect. Now that Mooi Kin has fully understood it, she accepts and faces the consequences willingly.
 
 

 
Through her participation in the Dharma as Water sutra adaptation performance, Fong Mooi Kin realized that she must repent for the past sins she had created. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]   Having fully understood the Karmic Law of Cause and Effect, Fong Mooi Kin accepts and faces the consequences of her past wrongdoings willingly. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]

Through her participation in the Dharma as Water sutra adaptation performance, Fong Mooi Kin realized that she must repent for the past sins she had created. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]
 
Having fully understood the Karmic Law of Cause and Effect, Fong Mooi Kin accepts and faces the consequences of her past wrongdoings willingly. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]
 
Since 2011, Fong Mooi Kin (middle) has put on Tzu Chi’s uniform and involved herself in Tzu Chi’s activities. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]   During home visits to Tzu Chi care recipients, Fong Mooi Kin envied them for having a happy and harmonious family despite being materially deprived. She deeply regretted and repented for her past ignorance. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]

Since 2011, Fong Mooi Kin (middle) has put on Tzu Chi’s uniform and involved herself in Tzu Chi’s activities. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]
 
 
During home visits to Tzu Chi care recipients, Fong Mooi Kin envied them for having a happy and harmonious family despite being materially deprived. She deeply regretted and repented for her past ignorance. [Photograph by Aw Lee Ching]
 
Fong Mooi Kin is grateful to her friend, Koh Ee Eng (right), for inviting her to Tzu Chi and giving her positive guidance and encouragement. [Photograph by Tang Weng Tong]    

Fong Mooi Kin is grateful to her friend, Koh Ee Eng (right), for inviting her to Tzu Chi and giving her positive guidance and encouragement. [Photograph by Tang Weng Tong]